is what I am.
I’ve had a really off week. I haven’t been feeling well physically or emotionally and I’ve been in a rut. I have been really stressed about lots of things in life and the uncertainty of the times Im in have been eating at me. Today, I had a bit of a wake up call 
Jenna and Laura came in to work and I got off and we went to Target together. I was in absolute awe of how aware I was just of how freaking blessed I am to have people in my life that literally redefine the word family. Though we are not related by blood, they are my family. Jenna is my little sister, Drew is my little brother, Laura and Bruce are my other parents. I don’t hesitate to say they are my family, I don’t care when people think it’s weird. We put the fun in dysfunction, we always have, and we alwaysss and forever will I could never in a million years express my gratitude to God for putting them in my life, and especially for the incredible sisterhood that He gave Jenna and I. Despite and through everything, even ourselves, our differences, our feuds, flaws and inadequacies, our bond remains unbreakable. Life changes, we change and circumstances change, but real and true love works through everything and in the end, remains. That is so true of Jenna and I’s relationship. No other relationship in my life has blessed me, challenged me, grown me and completed me more than my relationship with my sweet little sister
On the drive home, I talked on the phone with my phenomenal sponsor who never fails to help me do the next right thing and put everything in perspective. I have been in such a funk all week and I just want to snap out of ittt. She encouraged me to jsut let everything go tonight and have some self care time! Well, I really stink at self care, but with the help of some awesome people and an awesome program I am taking baby steps. So, I decided on going for a run. Running always makes me feel better and gets a lot of my stress and frustrations out. Well, boy, did I run! I ran and ran and ran. And cried and cried. And prayed and prayed. And ran some more. I ended up running all the way from my apartment to Ardrey Kell HS and back. And on the way back, I threw up… Nothing like a good, hard run! And when I got home, I felt like every tension was gone from my body. Exercise is a glorious thing!
I came home and put a load of laundry in and relaxed for a bit, went to my parents to play with the dog and let her out, and now Im lying in my bed curled up with my awesome kitty. Sometimes life just isn’t easy. And sometimes I get really caught up in everything that is stressful and wrong. Like all week this week. But, I heard something on the radio the other day that really hit me hard: “Maybe we don’t need more to be thankful for, maybe we just need to be more thankful”. This really couldn’t be more true. Cultivating an attitude of gratitude is so essential to our daily life. We always have plenty to be thankful for, we just need to become more thankful people.
Though I may not feel well today, and though I may be finding things difficult to deal with right now, and though things may seem grim… I will choose for this moment to be thankful, and I will choose for this moment to let go and let God, and I will choose for this moment to be of good heart…. because I am entirely too blessed to be stressed
<3Katekatee
